I am now the mother of a college student, kindergartner and preschooler. Bryn started at the community college yesterday, Michael's first day of kindergarten is September 9th and Daniel's first day of preschool is September 14th.
The last 12 months or so have been full of ups and downs, and a lot of them. There are some things that have happened that I wish would not have happened, but they did and they can't be undone, so I will just pray, pray, pray and pray some more for favorable outcomes.
My best friend is returning to work this fall as well, which has surprisingly left me with mixed emotions. I mean, really, what does it matter if my friend works or not, right? I guess my emotions come from knowing that she will now be busy every day and her weekends filled with things unable to be done during the work week, and that we will no longer be able to spend lazy days drinking coffee at the kitchen table while the kids ran and played. It also kind of makes me think that perhaps I should think about doing something with my life...such as earn an income :-) Which, I am attempting to do, but when you want to work from home, it really limits your possibilities. I really think that I should be something or someone but for the life of me don't know what it should be. Maybe I need to take some type of aptitude test, and not the kind found on facebook....that would probably be a good start!!
I am hoping though that with the start of a new school season coupled with my only working at the church nursery 1 or 2 days per week will allow me to start (and hopefully finish) some or all of the projects that I would do when Michael was born and I decided to be a stay at home mom. Although, I know that I should have been able to do them AND be a stay at home mom, it just never happened that way for me.
Well, I guess that it's for now for me. I am sitting in the (what is billed as a comfortable) parent room at Kids Drop Zone while Michael & Daniel are playing, wishing that people didn't think that wicker furniture was considered comfortable.
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oh Kat. it is tough to really be sure who you are, what you should be, or what you want to be. It would be nice if we could just be and let ourselves be ok with that. This is certainly a time of transition for you with what is going on with all of the kids, that is always bad news for me and that pesky little beyotch in my head saying, "what *are* you doing with your life, who are you anyway? I am sad for you having your BFF go back to work too, that is a drag.
anyway, can't wait til we can talk. and laugh, and laugh, and laugh.
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