Okay...

So, I returned about an hour ago from seeing Marley & Me, and boy do I have a headache....you know, from crying AND sobbing. I think the girl sitting next to me was made of stone...not one single tear, sniffle, sob...NOTHING. I'm not sure she was even human. Anyway, when I dressed this morning I totally forgot that I was going to the movies because I put on mascara (non waterproof) and eyeliner. I had black streaks down my cheeks and black rings around my red eyes. I did, however, give Cybil (my 12 year old dog for those who may not know), A LOT of extra attention. She really is the greatest dog ever born and my children (especially the youngest) love her dearly. Daniel's words are "I love you Cybil the whole wide world"....said to her while he is laying his head on her. Even before seeing this movie, that made me tear up, but NOW.....oh boy.

Am I crazy or what???

I am going with my friend this afternoon to see Marley & Me. I have heard all the reviews and I know how it ends, and I have been known to tear up at a commercial, my dog is 12 years old AND I know the pain of watching your beloved animal being put to (eternal) sleep, so why am I going? I certainly can't be THAT desperate to get out of the house, can I? I don't know, but I'm going anyway. Popcornless with a smuggled bottle of water in my bag. At least the tickets are free.

I say

that if it's going to be 20 degrees outside, why won't it just freakin' snow???? I HATE, HATE, HATE the cold, but at least if it snows, then there's a reason for the coldness. C'mon, Old Man Winter, quit being such a wuss and snow on us already, while it is still WINTER. I am sick of this snowing in April crap!

I have one nerve left

and that little shithead Michael is ALWAYS on it! Does that mean it's time to go back to work? Or do I just need to get away from him more often. aaaarrrrrggggghhhhh

A little sumthin' sumthin'

Because I'm lazy.

Just boldface the items that you HAVE done, and leave the rest normal….

1. Started your own blog

2. Slept under the stars

3. Played in a band

4. Visited Hawaii

5. Watched a meteor shower

6. Given more than you can afford to charity (I’m throwing this question out because I don’t like it)

7. Been to Disneyland/world

8. Climbed a mountain.

9. Held a praying mantis

10. Sang a solo

11. Bungee jumped

12. Visited Paris

13. Watched a lightning storm at sea

14. Taught yourself an art from scratch

15. Adopted a child

16. Had food poisoning

17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty

18. Grown your own vegetables

19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France

20. Slept on an overnight train

21. Had a pillow fight

22. Hitch hiked

23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill

24. Built a snow fort

25. Held a lamb

26. Gone skinny dipping

27. Run a Marathon

28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice

29 Seen a total eclipse

30. Watched a sunrise or sunset

31. Hit a home run

32. Been on a cruise

33 Seen Niagara Falls in person

34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors

35. Seen an Amish community

36. Taught yourself a new language

37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied

38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person

39. Gone rock climbing

40. Seen Michelangelo’s David

41 Sung karaoke

42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt

43. Bought a stranger a meal in a restaurant

44. Visited Africa

45 Walked on a beach by moonlight

46. Been transported in an ambulance

47. Had your portrait painted

48. Gone deep sea fishing

49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person

50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris

51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling

52. Kissed in the rain

53. Played in the mud

54. Gone to a drive-in theater

55. Been in a movie (do home movies count?)

56. Visited the Great Wall of China

57. Started a business

58. Taken a martial arts class

59. Visited Russia

60 Served at a soup kitchen

61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies

62. Gone whale watching

63. Gotten flowers for no reason

64 Donated blood, platelets, or plasma

65. Gone sky diving

66 Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp

67 Bounced a check

68. Flown in a helicopter

69. Saved a favorite childhood toy

70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial

71. Eaten Caviar

72. Pieced a quilt

73. Stood in Times Square

74. Toured the Everglades

75. Been fired from a job

76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London

77. Broken a bone

78. Been on a speeding motorcycle

79 Seen the Grand Canyon in person

80. Published a book

81. Visited the Vatican

82. Bought a brand new car

83. Walked in Jerusalem

84. Had your picture in the newspaper

85. Read the entire Bible

86. Visited the White House

87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating

88. Had chickenpox

89. Saved someone’s life

90. Sat on a jury

91. Met someone famous

92. Joined a book club

93. Lost a loved one

94. Had a baby

95. Seen the Alamo in person

96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake

97. Been involved in a lawsuit

98. Owned a cell phone

99. Been stung by a bee

One day into it

And I eat a piece of monkey bread. WTF????? I didn't even really want it, but it was there. I had just gotten done eating an omelet, a very filling omelet, filled with 1 cup of diced tomatoes, 1 cup of spinach and 1/4 cup of mozzerella cheese, made with 3 egg whites and half of a whole wheat english muffin. Hungry I wasn't. I feel like sh*t in the mornings and don't want to get out of bed, I have no energy and just feel BLAH. I know part of that is because I am stressing....stressing about Bryn, about his grades, about him graduating (or not), stressing about money, about the cleanliness of the house (or lack thereof), stressing, stressing, stressing. Not good for trying to change old unhealthy habits into new healthy habits.

Enough whining.....I need to go tackle the laundry room. I did the puzzle cabinet, the movie cabinet and the downstairs closet last week. Baby, baby, baby steps. I also cleaned and organized the play room, got rid of a lot of toys, and the the tent that my husband put in their to keep the kids quiet and occupied kind of back fired and they ended up dumping EVERY SINGLE TOY that they own inside the tent. I have been avoiding that room and just closing the door. I will deal with it when I have tackled something new. I really hate going back to the same room/area over and over and over again.

New beginnings....

I thought since I would change the look of my blog as I start what will (hopefully) be the start of a fitter, healthier lifestyle. My weight has long since (being in the last 5 years) been a battle. I never thought that I would have a weight problem, but as I have aged, it has become increasingly more difficult to take it off, and on the few occasions that I have gotten it off, keeping it off was not successful. At this point in my life, my weight loss goes far beyond aesthetics; it is much more about my health and doing my healthy best to make sure that I am around to mother (or smother) my children.

So here's hoping that I am able to do it this time. I have put a lot of thought and time into my plan of attack and have plotted my course, so I am hoping that will help make the path a little less rocky.